I would drive out for an hour and wait in the dark, sitting in the car for 2 hours at midnight until you got off from work,
Just to see you for 1 more hour,
Even though we just saw each other 8 hrs ago.
I wasn’t even angry that your phone died,
Or that you forgot I was coming,
I didn’t care, as long as I saw you,
Knew that you were safe.
I’m fine if you leave me in the dark until morning,
As long as I know you will come to get me,
Come to meet me,
Come to see me,
At some point,
At any point.
I am fine if I sat there for days, weeks, months,
if I had to.
As long as you are at the end of the tunnel,
I would wait,
I could sleep knowing you were coming.
Every time we hug to say goodbye,
My arms never want to let go,
I want to keep holding on,
Because I have this fear that my body will forget the warmth of your body,
I have this fear,
Of every trace of you disappearing.
This fear that never stops,
These tears that fall until my sleeves are soaked,
Until my pants are drenched,
Until the pillow won’t hold any more,
and the Kleenex supply runs dry.
I can’t stop crying.
I don’t want to leave home,
Not because I hate my friends in Connecticut,
But because I can’t stand being away from you more.
I don’t want to leave you.