That’s what both my parent’s raised me to believe. My parents have only given me a handful of advice throughout my 23 years – and this was one of them.
Friends don’t exist.
And honestly, I’ve taken their advice to heart up until now. I’ve been let down by so many people in the past years – friends and family alike, that it is really easy to believe that I have no friends.
But I think it’s because I’ve been making friends with the wrong people my entire life.
Chasing after people who probably didn’t like me to begin with.
Patching up relationships that never should have existed in the first place.
Hurting myself for thinking that someone cared about me in the same way that I cared for them.
And I realized that I don’t need to try anymore.
I already have the best type of friends: Friends who understand me, understand when I need space and understand that I’m not the type of person who will call and gossip randomly every day, week or even month. Friends that know I’m not perfect at staying in touch.
But they are still the best friends in the world. Friends that can pick up right where we left off, like the last few months or years didn’t put a gap between us at all. Friends that don’t stop becoming friends just because we stopped talking or texting. It feels like we’re still sitting on the grass underneath the tree in 6th grade.
Friends that keep in touch with me even when I’m not really good at keeping in touch with them.
Friends that contact me without my having to contact them first.
Friends that I somehow didn’t realize were “best friends” until this very moment.
I never want to let them go.
Even for most of my long-term readers, you are honestly some of the best people I have ever met. I consider you my friends. For putting up with my erratic posts, for reaching out to me despite how I haven’t returned comments in months. For dropping by and supporting me for whatever reason. Words cannot express the amount of thanks I have for you guys.
Finally, I feel thankful for knowing the people I already know.
I don’t feel like I need to try and reach out to people who actively ignore me anymore.
Thanks to all of you. Honestly. Thank you.